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there MAY be a revival of this blog and au in the future
#might start writing the fanfic and making fanart again#if i were to reposr the fanfic w new chapters#i might just post it here#bc ao3 scares me >_<#i really need to make a new pfp too#god this one is SO old#river rambles
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YURI BLAST. RAAAAA
#maccadam#mtmte#cygate#instead of posting this just on a secret third shame twitter account I remembered tumblr honestly afford me the same amount of privacy. yay#but I hate tagging bc I’m scared of looking like the tags on a ao3 chatfic#transformers#cyclonus#tailgate#sorry class
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posting my delusion for tumblr
fic below
#once again in screenshot form bc i dont wanna reformat on tumblr#and ao3 scares me#im not good at non-heavy dialogue please spare me#post s15#they rebuilt the waterpark again#grif is very touch starved#rvb#red vs blue#rooster teeth#my art#agent washington#david washington#wash rvb#grif rvb#Dexter grif#rvb fic#fanfic#wrif#shit art bc im sleepy#my fic
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Hii, I just discovered your fics and am reading my way through them. Love, love, love the ones I’ve read so far.😊 I was just wondering what your favourite Draco is you’ve written, and what your fave Draco is in fics written by others? ☺️
ACK thank you!! what a question!! i've considered this v carefully and it turns out i have………a lot of thoughts. i will keep them under a cut so nobody is accosted with a full 700 words of my Draco Opinions 😂 so my quick answer is:
my fave draco i've written: the taste of țuică my fave draco ever: rookie moves by peu_a_peu
draco is an interesting one for me bc i don't really LIKE him? but i have sooo many feelings about him. really not sure i could summon the same fervour for harry, for example, who is my number one boy forever and always.
(i saw a thing once that said a pairing becomes ur otp when u relate to one of the characters and want to fuck the other one, and 🙈 i mean, i think you're supposed to relate to the gryffindor, aren't you. whoops.)
OKAY SO HERE'S THE UNHINGED DRACO MALFOY ESSAY BY FLUX W. EED.
listen. i love and respect people who are Refined Draco enjoyers. connoisseurs of redemption arcs. appreciators of majestic malfoy bone structure and ethereal grey eyes and soft windswept hair. fans of dracos who insult harry (with hidden affection) and who are a bit snobbish (in a rich, sexy way) but ultimately have realised the error of their teenage years and have become a better person. perhaps this draco has built a potions business and helps the aurors. perhaps he IS an auror. either way, he has a biting sense of humour, maybe, but he's a good guy.
unfortunately, the draco of my heart is a horrid mean little rat man.
i've never actually managed to write him the way i love him. i tried to aim for immoral bastardy in what's mine is yours but i got so caught up in trying to nail the feelsforbreakfast-style humour in the narrative that i ended up focusing much more on that and much less on writing genuine bastardhood.
i've written him as reserved and clever (in the four doors – this draco was written entirely for @jovialobservationanchor, who had a weak spot for closed-off academics with soft centres) and as a traumatised self-loathing mess (in two to lie and to some extent for lack of wanting and say no to this) and hopelessly sexually/emotionally horny for one harry james potter (in, um, most things) but i've never managed to capture the genuine cruel streak and flawed personality that is sooo so important to me.
WHICH IS WHY i picked țuică!draco for my favourite of the ones i've written. he's still a bit too emotionally intelligent to be Just Right, imo, but i think he's maybe the closest? he's unrepentantly rude to people. he's not attractive. and he has a streak of self-destructive fucked-upedness that is some form of wartime guilt, but certainly not a pretty one.
HOWEVER. rookie moves?? NAILED it. i adooored how genuinely fuckin MEAN he is, even tho he's an auror. i love love LOVED that he's kind of bad at his job in a way that's in complete opposition to how drarry!draco is often written these days:
The look on Malfoy’s face was not only troubling, Harry realized, but familiar. At once activated and dead behind the eyes, like an invasive species in an ecosystem that could not check it. It was the look of the meanest fucking teenager Harry had ever known, giving in to his urge to bully.
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What Malfoy wasn’t good with was people. Despite his repeated insistences that his upbringing had equipped him with impeccable manners and a facility with society intrigue, the truth was that he rubbed almost everyone the wrong way. He was, undeniably, annoying. Witnesses were put off by his snide, dismissive tone, and he didn’t know how to coax out information with curiosity, warmth, or strategic silence.
that's not to say unrepentant cunt draco is the only one for me!! i DO enjoy the classic redeemed drarry draco!! i love a quirky draco, à la wwpwcs or maya's drop dead gorgeous. gallaplacidia's draco is sooo painful for me to read (complimentary) that even though i adore her fics, i still haven't read them all bc i have to space them out, for my health. and i'm sure there are dozens more dracos that i'm forgetting how much i like – basically, as long as he isn't super suave, absolutely gorgeous and/or obviously tom felton, i'm on board.
#also ohsodraco i'm lowkey starstruck that ur in my inbox + ao3 comments#i've been following u from my main acc for approx a thousand years#i'm all aflutter#also speaking of being starstruck#v glad that peu doesn't seem to have tumblr so she might not see me being weird about her fic AGAIN#nobody send this to her god#i've embarrassed myself enough as it is#ALSO. i have a poll saved in my tumblr drafts abt that 'otp = want to fuck/relate to' theory but i am too scared to post it#bc i'd be so embarrassed if it got like 2 votes lmao#someone with a Following pls promise to reblog it so i can gather data bc i'm sooo interested to know whether it's true
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#some thoughts incoming idk if i should share but i need to put them somewhere#it's hard being in the yr fandom since the finale when you don't share the same vision and opinion as the rest#and people make future wilmon posts or write post s3 fics (which many exist now) they just don't align with your idea at all#and they're not exciting to me at all and the whole concept just makes me upset#i don't wanna imagine Wille as a 'normal' person (not that that's ever possible anyway which the show loves to ignore)#like I'm sorry but i didn't come to the show to watch an ordinary love story and have them lead an ordinary life#the idea of Wille being a future king and them navigating that royal life together is so much more interesting#i hate that that isn't canon anymore and when ppl make posts about them it's not about that or that would only be seen as a negative thing#i don't wanna imagine a life where they are 'normal' that isn't appealing to me at all and it sucks seeing everyone embrace it#and it's like you're not allowed to want something else or think differently bc that makes you the bad person and you're just wrong#i can't be excited about their future (also bc i don't really see them going strong in the future with how they messed them up in s3)#(i also didn't want to know what could possibly happen in the future i wanted that to stay open and just be in the present)#and seeing everyone else excited and happy about it makes you feel horrible and very alone and disconnected in the fandom#i don't wanna take it away from them but i also would love to see other takes but that's basically impossible now#am i the only person who feels this way or are there any other who can relate? pls let me know#i already feel like ppl are gonna attack me for this but it's been hard especially now with Simon's month and seeing so many interpretation#navigating ao3 has also become difficult now#it's hard finding fics to read where wille stays crown prince and you don't have to be scared for that to change#i just can't read any canon compliant fics anymore and i hate it bc i hate to disagree with canon#i normally don't do that bc canon is important to me and i don't want to reject it and create my own fantasy#and that's what's upsetting#anyway sorry i had to write this#personal
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Ok, so the reason i've been asking abt batfam lore is bc i was wanting to get back into fanfic writing and ive been really into batfam fics for the past year.
After finding out some canon stuff abt alfred, i now understand the ao3 tag 'canon is a dumpster and ive gone diving'.
I still have no desire to get into any comics other than deadpool (and that's ONLY bc it literally doesn't matter where the universe is at, ALL iterations are canon for that rabid weasel), and fanon is far more cohesive and engaging to read for me than any comic dc can put out.
Don't get me wrong, flawed characters are engaging, but my brain has given up with this mess.
#batman#batfam#ao3#fanfiction#i still like batfam fics#and will continue to read them#and hopefully get around to writing one#but this is also why i stopped reading venom#i mean#i never for one second thought alfred was a saint#you don't survive a war and stay mentally ok#but dc is also incentivised now to churn out comics by making everything worse and worse#bc drama sells#and we can't just let franchises die#and im adding all these tags bc im at the dentist#and the election results came in#and im ANXIOUS#and SCARED#bc my mum still lives in the states#and me doing this is somehow cathartic#im stopping now#appointment starts soon
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Small introspection of sorts surrounding Astrid, Hiccup and their initial conflict in the first movie. Through the lens of them both being autistic, because it is so much more fascinating in that context.
Rating: general audiences.
Characters: Astrid Hofferson, Hiccup Horrendous Haddock III
Cw: implied internalized ableism, very brief mention of mild self harm in the context of a meltdown
Words: 1,394
Chapters: 2/2
Summary: Hiccup Haddock is different, he always has been and always will be. But he is not alone. He has his best friend, his other half, and he has a new friend. One who understands.
First chapter is from Astrid's pov and second is from Hiccup's. There's no dialogue because I was more focused on their feelings/thoughts
#httyd#astrid hofferson#hiccup haddock#httyd fic#autistic!astrid#autistic!hiccup#how to train your dragon#httyd headcanons#autistic headcanon#ao3#httyd fanfiction#hiccstrid#this isnt even very good but i just couldn't get the idea out of my head#i posted this on ao3 a while ago but was too scared to put it on tumblr bc. people actually follow me here 🪤#moth.fic#<- new tag maybe? idk#deyas dragons
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inspired by @colap1nto <3 and posting here to hold myself accountable: writevember! attempting to write something every day no matter how much and what it is
i am however inventing stipulations for myself so i cannot weasel my way out of it, which includes a valid definition of “write”:
actively put words into a document in the form of a proper fic!!! too many wip not enough hands!!
poems (actually laughed at me coming up with this but maybe i will go back to my roots)
research/meta/primers
tag stories are permissible IF i actually compile and edit them into a readable document that day
editing to post to ao3 (the optimism) is also valid. it takes me so long
i do have concrete arbitrary deadlines for one and a half fics that i would LOVE to finish and post in november (dewey^2 and [redacted :)]) so i’m hoping this helps!! also, this is secretly just a sticker chart where i get to put down emojis for each fic i worked on and check off boxes but a win is a win
day 1:🪻🐈⬛
day 2: 😇🤭 (🕒 -> 🕜)
day 3:🫃2️⃣
day 4: 🍎
day 5:🫃2️⃣
day 6: 📑, 💌
day 7:🫃2️⃣ AND ☁️💧. who is she
day 8:🪻🐈⬛
day 9:🫃2️⃣
day 10:🫃2️⃣
day 11:🫃2️⃣ we are on a STREAK and also a countdown 🫡
day 12:🫃2️⃣
day 13:🫃2️⃣
day 14: 📬💍
day 15: 😇🤭 (🕒 -> 🕜)
day 16:🫃2️⃣
day 17: 🔴 ⚫️,🫃2️⃣
day 18:🪻🐈⬛
day 19:🪻🐈⬛, 😇🤭 (🕒 -> 🕜)
day 20:🫃2️⃣
day 21:🫃2️⃣, 🤫 🪽🃏
day 22:🫃2️⃣
day 23: 💯❕
day 24: 🪢
day 25: 🐛🏮🦋
day 26:🫃2️⃣
day 27:🫃2️⃣
day 28:🫃2️⃣
day 29:🫃2️⃣
day 30:🫃2️⃣
WRITEMBER RECAP: an overall sucess!!!! this was so much fun and really forced me to write even if it was only a little bit every day. like, to the point that i'm debating doing a cute little twelve days of christmas snippet fest. absolutely could not have finished and published dewey^2 p2 without this challenge or posted p3 :)
thirty days of writing
twelve different fics worked on
poems: 1
i have no word count for you sorry i wish i did but it is at least over a few thousand words!!!!
times i wrote for a day past midnight (making it technically the next day) but because i was still awake i counted it for that day: at least 17 if not closer to like. 25
tags i forgot what they mean: one. what the FUCK is 🪢??? OH MY GOD I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THAT IS NEVERMIND
duolingo streak (worked on the same fic in a row): 5
#liv in the replies#guys are you proud of me. i put everything I would normally yap into the tags in the actual post. hashtag growth#i say continuing to yap into the tags. I don’t want to be pessimistic but I AM scared this is occurring during my monthly bout of#productivity and I will face the doldrums and absolute inability to write in 2-4 days lol#also everyone says this next systems course is GARBAGE and terrible and super hard which. okay 💗 yay 💗#I should’ve put “reply to ao3 comments’ as a valid form of writing because the comment box terrifies me but it’s FINE#if you have ever commented on my fic I love you with every unspeakable fiber of my being and there is one comment I feel so guilty about#but it’s because every time I think about it I need to go jump around in circles I can’t fangirl too hard I also cannot find the WORDS#like even typing this out i’m like. anxious butterfly but it’s because I have so much love in my heart#also i am codifying the emojis to fics for Me sorry because I think it’s fun and i’m being secretive for literally no reason.#everyone tell me to get off of here and work on an actual fic. after I have my nik-induced/enabled 2353 breakdown#we hit day five and yes I DID forcibly make myself not work on a completely different fic. i wannnntttt to finishhhhh 🫃^2 2️⃣ so badddd#& this is not a game of ‘work on a different wip every day’ even if i could feasibly do that🫡 good news is i rlly think 3 -> 1 1/2 is done?#update 11/10 (technically 11/11 but it’s fine this is how it normally works) if i write like an unhinged person which is to say at all#bc i have midterms but also really like an unhinged person i MIGHT be able to adhere to my self-imposed deadline for 🫃2️⃣. god bless me#at 1:30AM yesterday having an absolute breakthrough with a line that has been in some variation in so many different fics including mine#for myself specifically because i keep having this moment: 🪢 is the fic in the bottom of the yowling doc lmao.
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Set in-between dovewing's silence and avos
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Dovewing lay curled up on the moss beside him, Lionblaze was thankful to see the tell tale rise and fall of her chest, the ease of her breathing, of a dreamless sleep. Every now and then her ears and whiskers twitched, and she mumbled out phrases and names, but other than that she seemed to be resting properly.
"You worry a lot."
Lionblaze's gaze flits to his left, where Jayfeather grooms a paw and draws it over his muzzle. His blind blue eyes were bright. "You say that like you don't."
Jayfeather doesn't confirm nor deny him, moving closer to lay his body so that it warmed Lionblaze's side. "There's a lot to worry about, being a medicine cat and all."
"If you need more fox dung for your garden," Lionblaze jokes. "You know who to call."
"Definitely not Ivypool." There's a wry smirk on his brother's face. "And you may have fought a fox alone and won, but it's different now, you need to learn to be more careful."
Lionblaze rolls his eyes. "Yes, yes. As if I hadn't heard that a hundred times already."
"I'm serious." Jayfeather hardens his tone. "The clan needs you. I need you."
"You'll do just fine without me in the picture." Lionblaze protests. "You and Hollyleaf have always been more than capable."
Jayfeather's expression morphs into anger. "You don't get to decide that." He spits, only low enough so that they wouldn't wake Dovewing up. "You don't get to decide if I want to lose another littermate or not."
Lionblaze feels his heart crack. "Jay, that's not what I-"
"I know." The tom interrupts, taking a deep breath and letting all the anger go with a sigh. "Just. Say you'll be careful, okay?"
"I can't promise that and mean it." Lionblaze mews, guilty but honest. "I've spent all my life heading into danger because I always believed I couldn't get hurt, I don't think I can force my body to forget that every time."
Jayfeather sighs again, resigned and tired. "I know." He repeats. "You're going to try and prove that losing your powers didn't stop you from being ThunderClan's best warrior."
Lionblaze presses his nose to Jayfeather's shoulder. "It's the only way I feel of use to the clan." he says, voice muffled by gray fur. "I know you overwork because you feel the same way about your medicine cat duties."
Jayfeather briefly taps his chin against the golden tom's forehead. "I guess we have a lot to deal with, still." he pauses. "And so does she."
Drawing away from him, Lionblaze glances back to Dovewing, nodding out of habit. "I have to admit," He says, tongue heavy in his mouth. "I don't think she's doing better than the two of us combined."
Jayfeather knows what he means, remembers the younger she-cat's voice, distant and dull on worse days, distracted and out of it on her best. He wonders if they're part of the cause, feels his stomach coil at the thought.
"Whatever happens, if- when she decides to choose her happiness over stupid prophecies..." His voice fades for a moment, thoughts running over countless possibilities. "I won't stop her."
Lionblaze's responding meow is as soft as the fluffy tail that curls up over Jayfeather's back. "Me neither."
They stay like that for a moment, before Lionblaze speaks again, a rumbled buzz beneath Jayfeather's neck.
"I wondered, but was afraid of asking..." he tapers off awkwardly, and Jayfeather gives his ear a lick to continue. "Your powers, you said they helped you see in your dreams, right?"
"They did." Jayfeather blinks, vision still obscured far too much to discern what he was looking at. "But that doesn't mean I don't see whenever I dream anymore."
"So do you still know what I look like?"
"Yes, Lionblaze." Jayfeather snorts. "I still remember you and you're ugly face in excruciating detail."
"Hey-" The bigger tom breathes a huff of laughter. "I'm fairly handsome, I'll have you know."
"I quite literally and figuratively can't figure out what Cinderheart or Berrynose sees in you, honestly."
"Just because I'm not gentle or tall like Kestrelflight doesn't mean other cats don't have a crush on me, okay?"
"Kestrel- you know what? Nevermind. Forget I said anything." That's another headache to ponder about another time, and Jayfeather mulls over a thought in his brain, one that sits at the back of his throat. "I don't think it'll last though, the dreams, I mean."
Lionblaze rights his position. "How so?"
"They'll fade." Jayfeather says. "I'll forget."
The finality doesn't leave room for opposition but Lionblaze still finds himself looking at the stars in the sky anyway.
"If you ever do," he meows. "I'll remind you."
Jayfeather dips his head, Dovewing shuffles closer in her slumber, and Lionblaze continues gazing at the beyond alone.
#i think ill post this on ao3 later#i wanted to explore the concept of the threes birth and worth being correlated to fulfilling the prophecy#but it got away from me#maybe another time#idk where im getting the balls to post my fanfic bc i normally always shit myself scared thats ehy i refuse to tag#but you know what i dont care anymore its 2023 im writing wc fanfic im cringe but im free!!!!!!!!!!!#if i find the motivation maybe this will be a comic one day
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I was curious so I went to your Voyager fics on ao3 and filtered out Tuvok's character tag. Three remained, one of them still centered around him without him appearing (the one about his family coping with his disappearance) and another still mentioned him by name in the text. Twice.
None of this is meant as criticism btw, people obsessed with one particular character are literally the backbone of fandom and I genuinely love this for you. Strongest soldier in the Tuvok army. And you're impeccable at it! Love you
I AM. A TUVOK GIRLIE. TO THE BONE!!!!!!!!!!! <- Cheering I would never take this as a criticism, please don't worry - I love him!
#all of them get two comments and I cherish each one!!! Let's GOOO TUVOK GANG!!!#One day you will look at my ao3 tag and it'll be like 200 voyager fics and you'll go 'no...surely they can't all be...'#but they will be#People should send me more asks about Tuvok (if they are so inclined) I think about him so much#But also then you know what?? Then I get scared if people actually do send me an ask about him bc I'm like 'what if I get this so wrong??'#It's a double edged sword truly v_v#<- If you're a very frightened individual like moi#Q&A#anon
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i fear at this point all i can truly write is staig
#GET ME OUT OF STAIG HELL !!!!!!!!#i know them so well every time i have a fic idea im like oh let’s just make it staig bc i KNOW how to write them#need to build confidence in writing goro n akira so i can write more shuake…#i wrote one p5 fic during the summer…glee au…and i rlly enjoyed it but !! i got a lot of nice comments but one user said they thought i#wrote ann a little off character and that’s like the only mild criticism ive ever received on a fic so ! i have been too scared to return to#p5 ao3….lolz…ill probably write more shuake eventually though#staig#south park#send help i have 10 ao3 staig fics and i just keep writing
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I NEED PEOPLE TO STOP SAYING SIRIUS WAS A SLUT IN FICS.
i need people to stop period when it comes to sirius lmao
#sirius black#remind me again why we can’t gate keep characters we don’t own 💀#bc some of the things i’ve seen people do to my baby js—*phew*#there’s a very good reason i’m scared to venture into the sb tag here or on ao3#and most of it is the marauders fandom lmao#pen’s asks
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damn this inferiority complex got hands
#my issue with writing has honestly never been a lack of motivation or ideas#it’s always my fuckass head telling me i haven’t experienced enough of the world to tell a ‘proper’ story#that i just don’t Know enough to write anything substantial and it’s actually why i keep deleting and orphaning lots of my stuff 😭#i would’ve cleared my entire ao3 page if i didn’t write the last few for my friends ngl#like i get so scared that the story won’t hold up that i get stuck in the planning stage and eventually drop it#i’ve long fics planned out in my notes app that i never got around to writing bc i feel like i don’t KNOW ENOUGH. WHAT IS THIS NONSENSE#it’s less end of the worldish when i’m on an editing kick but once things get quiet i’m like ok girl what next and the answer is to cry#tally txt
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someone reccomended my fic on tiktok and now i’m melting into a puddle that was so sweet wow i love fandom this is so kind what can i even do next im sobbing
#ao3#it was the teacher itafushi one#jjk#sunny yaps#it jump scared me bc tiktok is just my normal tiktok it’s not fan related at all#so seeing it there 🫶🫶🫶#they also recc’d earthtodora#and ureikukistan#so they have good taste 🙏#and hijink_n_lowjinks i love them and their long fic too#ugh i love fandom
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Is it just me or like...
No one knows what to do with Diluc
So he's like shipped with everyone?
#genshin impact#genshin diluc#is that an accurate assessment#like i feel everytime i look through the diluc tag there's a new top ship#half of them im like have they even seen each other...?#i just feel like he doesn't have The Ship#at least one that ppl won't try to cancel you for#and that's all I'll say on kaeluc now#bc the genshin fandom still scares me#just curious#and yes#this is an invitation for propaganda#im desperate for content of my boy#im already scraping the barrel on ao3#Day 111 of hiding from my friends
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i have just got a brilliant idea for a blackhill au fic and if i don’t start writing it rn i WILL combust.
#oh god#my mind#its been a while since i wrote sth for blackhill but!!!#i can see it SO clearly#the best ideas come to me at 12am#and also when im supposed to be writing my bachelor’s thesis#wont share it with anyone tho bc im scared i wont finish writing it if i do#if i do i will post it on ao3 i promise#god#blackhill#natasha romanoff#maria hill#maria hill x natasha romanoff#fanfiction
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